"The only thing dark about the unknown is our ignorance of it."
-- Euvin Naidoo --
As long as you are making an effort to broaden your education, you cannot be faulted for how you are doing it, except by a fool who is not worth listening to in the first place.
"The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs and comes up short again and again; who knows the great enthusiasms, the great devotions, and spends himself in a worthy cause; who at best, knows triumph of high achievement; and who, at worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who know neither victory nor defeat."
-- President Theodore Roosevelt --
It is admirable that you have chosen to shape your future in conformance to President Abraham Lincolns inspiration:
"I will study and get ready and perhaps someday my chance will come".
Kudos to one who commands the respect of all who have gone before him for the effort he has made to improve himself. Keep up the good work.